Monday, January 25, 2016

When Laundry Day Comes Too Quick

For most weekends include catching up on the household tasks that get life behind during the week. The floors get a little crumby, the tables a little dusty but these are easy fixes. There is probably a pile of something or other that needs to get sorted.

But then comes the laundry game. It's a mountain that needs scaling. You forgot about it over the week, as much as that rubber band was supposed to remind you, put one load in tonight while cooking dinner. You are not superhuman; you wish you could be but those stocks are staring you down and it looks like they are about to win.

I'm not saying this happens to me every weekend, but more often than not, the clothes that I enjoy wearing find themselves in the dirty pile. And Monday morning is the perfect time to realize that and get it all together.

And I'm learning slowly but surely that all these small tasks are endless. They come in between the moments of eating, sleeping, working, catching up with the family. So, as long as there is something else that can cover me and no dire need is present, I'll put it off just a bit longer. Being able to catch up on that book due next week that hasn't been cracked open is a better priority.

As of now, I'm taking this quiet morning moment to type out my thoughts and feelings but also to wash my jeans for the week. I only have enough pairs for a workweek, plus black pants for my restaurant job. It keeps the amount of clothes in my wardrobe to a minimum but makes these mornings a whole lot easier. Perhaps another pair or two are in my future, but that also means a trip to Goodwill because that mountain will not be allowed to get any larger on my watch.

What are those tasks that build up too quickly or that end up being done last minute? 

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Getting Back On Track...

Changes lately have been derailing a lot of the usual important parts of my life. I keep on saying that my schedule is locked down, and the next week, things have turned into a sludgy mess once again.

There are a couple of objectives that really fell by the wayside the last couple of weeks of 2015. It was partly because of life, but also due to lack of focus and not enough habit built in. Something that can change with frequent participation on my part. And by that I mean truly focusing on what goals I would like to accomplish this year and what is most important in my priorities.

Reading! It was something I really made a concentrated effort to do the first 3/4 of 2015 and made almost no progress those last few months. Even now, I'm having trouble finding quiet time during the mornings to get in a few pages. There's a part of me that wants to wake up a bit earlier everyday for this, but I'm not all fully together at 8 am to truly understand and comprehend whatever it is I'm working on. I've been trying to bring a book with me to work and making lunch time a no phone area and sneaking in a tidbit, which helps me with wanting to read right before bedtime as well.

Being more positive about myself. This is a biggie. Like it should be the first thing I do everyday. Appreciating the wonderfulness of the day to day process of being human and becoming all that I can be. There seems to be a lot of inward negativity that takes hold of me as the day goes along, bringing me down and costing me a great deal of energy. Refocusing this negative into positive behaviors and attitudes will hopefully help me break out of this never ending cycle.

Really focusing on the debt payoff goal. My plan has been refocused with actual numbers and goals that make sense based on my current pay, which of course can fluctuate and is probably not a longterm possibility because 60 hours a week really isn't that sustainable in the long term. But anyway, my goal is to pay off my student loans in three years and my car in 2!

There are a lot of small details that I'm working on. Refinement almost seems like the perfect word, and yet it's not quite there yet. My life is still not smooth enough for the coarseness to be eliminated. It's still a work in progress that is still be hacked here and there and added to in other places. There are still some major parts that need quite a bit of attention, and it probably won't come this year, but maybe just maybe, they'll start hinting outward their greatness.